My Dream

My dream is to loiter around in empty field like this one. It always hits me spiritually on empty fields and emptiness like this. 

Today one of the influencers @saraemily I'm following shared about spiritual. A lot of people mistaken it as a religious or related to God, but it's not. I agreed with her that it's something that connects to the higher self. A sense of there is something more than what you see in front of you. Something higher that is deep inside you. That's spiritual. And she and her partner connects in many ways spiritually, good for her. She felt spiritually touched also when she was at niagara fall and in front of the great mother nature. I feel that so much too when I was in nature. When I was in Ijen, when I was in Bromo, when I was hiking in bukit tabur, when I was in Iceland, when I was in empty grass field in UK. I could look at these countryside pics all day night long and just imagining lives that I would wish to live.

But since I'm not originally from there, I would just want to work hard, earn more, save more, and connect to the spirit inside me. You can say it sounds like a shallow spirit who just want to be travelling abroad, I would see it as a free spirited deer who just wish to be roaming out there as a free spirited person. The last I felt alive was me and myself on the trip to Copenhagen/Hamburg. I just love the sense of me, myself and I, free. 

When I look back pics in Iceland, it always struck me on how serene it looks. How peaceful. Quiet. 

How empty. How loose. How free. 

It's not about travelling. Because its not the same feeling that the city life or travelling to another city give me. I never thought myself as a nature person. I just didn't know when I had become one and by thinking about it I could get so emotional.

Maybe it's not realistic. I never say I wanna live there all my lives and do nothing. It's just me surrendering to the nature and beauty of it. These grass, trees, fields, mountains.. they all were there before any of us were, and will always be there even when we passed on. We are such small tiny being on this earth. But not many are privileged. Not many are thinking about dreams, most only think about surviving. It's such a first world dream?

I'm not sure if after some time will I get bored with it. I just think there are phases in lives. The me currently just enjoying the serenity I have at home, with my WiFi, my TV box, phone, and mind just wandering on possibilities and getting recharge.

Don't suppress the inner you who feel strongly about something. That is something in you that will push you to create something bigger than yourself.